My heart is doing flip flops

I can't seem to figure it out?
I love D but at the same time he can change my mood from happy to upset in a matter of minutes. When his maturity and romantic-ness fade away;I'll im left with is a 15 year old nagging little boy that says things he probably doesn't mean.
But still...
they hurt.
Should I let go or should I stay?
I've tried before, and its really hard to say goodbye to someone you've shared so much with.
It's hard-so hard...my heart is failing at this game.
It feels heavy and filled with sorrow, it feels as though a part of me will be gone and missing forever.
He's seen me through my worst, and my best, and has loved every inch of me every step of the way.
but for some reason I feel objectified and forgotten now..
I feel empty, and sad.
but I still love.
I see new things and new people, and new interests, but how fair is it to him to let it go on like that.
I don't know.
I just feel it hurting, and I hate the pain,
I hate the pain it brings to me... something unsual, and unsure.

It's like I'm stuck

I feel as though I am stuck.
But not really.
But I am.
I love my boyfriend, but at the same time I'm totally interested in someone else.
Do I know if he's interested in me?
nada.
but there's always a chance, and always a chance for a friendship.
But for my boyfriend, its not just this one guy, its the possibility of dating other guys---not just this one.
And I just feel stuck either way I go I'm hurting myself or my boyfriend, or being totally unsure.

Let's chat

Honestly, I'm getting frustrated. I don't mean to brag but I'm considered one of the best employees @ my work. I have been told this nuremous times by my store manager and managers, but now my hours are being cut. Everyone's hours are being cut. I can only work weekends though, so its really hard being cut down. I really just have to begin to look for something else, I guess..
I thought I was doing well with selling and complimenting the customer, and yeah...I guess not really.
I try, and I really think everyone tries to do their best.
I thought I did an excellent job today, but who knows.
Its hard to get people to buy more than what they are looking for.
If we don't make money, we don't get hours.
thats just that.
And I'm so not loving it.
I was happy with the 10 hours a week making @ least 200 for 2 weeks worth of work...but now pay checks are slowly fumbling.
and the worst part is no sales associate or manager got a raise @ their year month...so I should have received an increase in July, but nope...
its sad, and I just wish I could find something else, but i Love everyone @ work and I do enjoy my store, and the persk it does offer, however being cut down to 7 hours a week is not a good thing...nor enjoyable. Even if work is boring, tiring and time consuming the money is still needed.
I just think I should start appreciating it more.
I will try.
:)

Confessions of a Shopalcholic

Need I say more?
I've probably dropped over $ 200 in the last 48 hours.
Lets see:
Costume that I won't be wearing - $25 -plus side- dean may be able to exchange for something he wants ( i put it on my credit card so I have time to pay it... I totally just need something to justify my spending)
Hot rollers -$51 -that I actually returned and now have store credit @ westside beauty...which is a good thing cause they have the nice shampoo and hair products I might need, plus a ceramic curler iron 1 1/2 inch. barrel.
Halloween Costume (Indian style) $65 but Dean split with me he paid 30 and I paid 40 so...that's nice.
Facial treatment - 95 dollars but I split the transaction so I paid 35 in cash (20 from mom :) ) and 60 on debit.
shit.
and don't forget I'm a spender a loyal one indeed
I dropped 21 on a cute flannel @ work today (orignal 42 i think) I get 50 percent off...
so there you go. (I also put that on credit)
well if you add it all up its over 200 but I did credit on some and cash on others, and really I still have that 51 from the beauty supply store...so really I guess I'm not all that bad after all.
:)
I will be saving 1/2 of my paycheck from now on (totally crossed my fingers on that one ;) )
but seriously I am thinking of getting a gym membership if i can get it for cheap so that will be 95 + 30= 125 a month for a spa treatment and fitness...
we'll seee.
:)

weekend madness

So this weekend was pretty busy, just like last weekend.
lets see the Monte Fireworks happened, and Marisa Miller and Matthew McConaughey were there to host it! it was really cool! Chelsea and I got to be in the front row, as usual...and that was really awesome!
No Kanye West though...nothing unsual about that.
I also had to work this weekend, and that was just tiring. I did pick up a cute striped gray and creme colored sweater from work, its comfy and cute. Also picked up a gray cami with lace trim, and it was on sale at A&E for like 10 bucks, not bad. Shopping always cures the uncertainity. Well lets see, finished up my article for the paper that comes out on Monday... it was about the fashion show that happened last weekend downtown. It was a really exciting event.
Journalism is much different than English or essay writing. Paragraphs can be one sentence, and quotes can be their own paragraph...so not the same w/English papers.
Kind of difficult to get used to.
Anyways that's all for now!
xoxo

Do do do

My long and busy weekend is pretty much calming down---minus work, which is always pretty much drama filled.
Well lets see my busy week started off with a trip to the county fair on Tuesday with Dean and Ryan. On Wed. Dean and I had to pick his tux up for the wedding that was on Friday.
On Thurs. we had dinner with Jan and Fran pretty much my aunt and uncle. We stayed there until 11pm...we were super tired. Then I found out I was called into work on Friday for a meeting because of 'drama' that's happening. I didn't know about any of it, so I was like what is going on. So Friday morning came, and I didn't have to go into work, but then I had to get ready for a wedding that afternoon. Now its Saturday, work today and work all day tomorrow--plus homework.
Anyways my first article for the school paper is in our website and will be in our first printed issue. Check it out at www.thecabrillovoice.com -under music, its about Pepper (my favorite band of course) lol.
Anyways I had a lot going on this week so I feel bad that I couldn't really help out with the newspaper layout, but that's okay, next time for sure.
Well lets see what else is going on...
We had a guest speaker in ECE - a midwife, and lets just say it was intense, and one sided.
I don't about having a baby, doesn't seem fun AT ALL.
LOL.
well anyways I got to go, I totally miss Dean, but nothing is new there.
LOVES.

All about Hair

So I recently just got my hair re-colored and trimmed. I feel as though it is short, I want it to be down to my boobs are a bit past it....and its past my shoulders right now...but not a lot. My hair is definately feeling healthier. I have been trying not to straighten my hair ---so far so good. Its been since Tuesday. I am trying to not straighten my hair for a whole month!!! I might have to for a wedding in two weeks, but that's understandable. So far though, its been fine. I mostly put my hair up anyways half way through the day or whatever, especially when it's hot. I have also been conditioning and deep conditioning my hair. I have washed my hair day and night, just to fade my color a bit---since I decided it I like it at a light brown hair with a few golden blonde streaks coming through. Anyways, I think I will be purchasing some hair extensions in the following days to come. I hope so! I really want them for the wedding---and if I do get them then I won't need to straighten my hair for the wedding, just curl the fake hair since my hair is naturally wavy!
It will be so great!
well I got to go !!! :)

Spurlge Alert!

So even though it was 50% off (which is considered a great markdown) I spurlged on a purse that was $140 dollars! But I really could not pass it up! It is so adorable. It's normally 285 dollars, but its so cute! It's by the brand Besso. I got it downtown, it's so beautiful. I absoultely love it.
:)
Just thought I would share.
I work tomorrow @ 2-6, its decent hours considering I don't close and I don't open...but it is kind of right in the middle of the day, but that's alright since Dean goes to class and then works.
:)
I'm also watching my "aunt and uncle's"house and pets---they aren't really my aunt and uncle but they feel like it! I love them.
I'm really excited.
I have to call into jury duty on Friday---I really just don't want to go.
LOVES.

I love my hair

So I love my hair so extremely much, that I just never want it to fade! I bought a special shampoo/conditioner for my hair---Biolage by Matrix, for color treated hair! Its a clear shampoo which I need since my hair gets oily at top but dry at the ends! My hair stylist uses this on me and her other clients, and I have had it before. I also have Joico K-Pak Reconstructing shampoo and conditioner but its a pearly iredescent shampoo, so its not as good for my hair type.
I also learned to prevent your hair from becoming too oily, its not a good idea to pile your hair ontop of your head---the idea that you conditioner your ends but not your scalp, but if you pile your hair on top...hence the idea of an oily scalp!!! Not good. So yeah that's nice to know since I have always put my hair up, whether its drying in a towel wrap or clipped up so its not in the way.
I'm going to give it a try and see how it goes!

Also I really want to get a few items.
St. Tropez Sunless tanner--the mousse. I think its about 30 something dollars.
Also I want hair extensions...I know I know, but I really think it would look sooo cute with my dark locks.
Also I am waiting for my two dresses and headbands from Forever 21 to arrive, should be here tomorrow or Monday...I am very excited!
:) night.

Sitting on my bed

"I've been sitting on my bed in your neighborhood..." K it totally doesn't work like Pepper's song:

"I've been sitting on the curb in your neighborhood," okay, enough of that ...

but yeah I've been really loving this song by Kings of Leon called "I want you." It's really good.

Still trying to figure them out, but I just don't know.

I worked today from 11-3---good shift because its early in the day, so I have time to do stuff later!

My boss said that I was her best employee! That's so awesome.

:) Made my day.

I'm still trying to sell my ipod touch its brand new $200 for it?

Any takers?

I DON'T know I am kind of over it, I just want to keep it now! Maybe I'll just get a cool phone from Verizon Wireless.

Seriously though---not much else.

I just felt like posting.

maybe more in a bit... or later! :)

Vent

I don't understand why I feel this way?
.... Like I love my boyfriend so much, but I'm attracted to other guys.
I mean, I know its normal to be attracted to other people---that's nature, that's life, that's reality...but if Dean said things about the girls he finds attractive, I would totally get jealous---and I do.
But with me, I can't help! I feel sometimes like my boyfriend is my boy-friend...and not like a lover...if that made sense.
I find myself attracted to an older guy--- (34 or 35 now) who knows...and for WHAT?
seriously.
its a little disturbing... and maybe something is wrong?
I just don't know.
I don't know what to do
my boyfriend is perfect...yet it seems as though I have a classic case of "It's greener on the other side..." This just can't be so?
I don't know what to do because I don't want to make the mistake of losing someone amazing---but I also don't want to make the mistake of not being able to meet new people---like what if's are happening in my mind again.
Seriously?
Its just more than usual I feel differently...but yet I feel the same.
I don't know what to do.
I'm confused...saddened and feel like I will lose altogether is whatever decision I make?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
It's so hard to say goodbye to someone that you care about the most, someone that makes you feel beautiful and special...but its also hard to feel restrained, and stuck, and not able to seek your interests in another.
ugh...
its hard.
I JUST CANNOT DECIDE.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
It seems as though I will have the biggest loss, either way.

Long Time no chat

Update!!! I am a brunette. I got really tired of the upkeep with the blonde...so brunette it is! :) I think it looks great. Anyways lets see I just got a new eyeliner, its Revlon Liquid Eyeliner. Its really nice and actually I find it much easier to use than the regular pencil or gel. I really like it. I also got a brow tinted wax thing with a highlighter as well. Its really pretty. I really like the things I got!
So not much has been going on besides my hair change, I love it, its so cute. I want it to lighten just a tad...but its perfect I think. :)
I got to go.

Everyday Minerals!

Finally after waiting a really long time, my package has arrived from Everyday Minerals.

Just a tad late, since I ended up purchasing a BareMinerals Foundation, since I was out of makeup completely! But that's okay, since I'll have enough in case that ever happens again!

Here are some swatches of the products I use.

First the Foundations:

Starting from left to right (--->) Well Rested(Bare Minerals), Intensive Fair (Everyday Minerals). The Well Rested is darker, but the Intensive Fair looks almost white, its really not that white...just from the picture. Next is Olive Light (Everyday Minerals) in the compressed powder, Light Olive (Everyday Minerals) in loose powder...they differ. a bit. Last but not least Light (Bare Minerals) loose foundation powder.

Next these are the blushes I use and one that I got.

From Left to right, Girl's Day (Everyday Minerals) I just got this as a sample to try because it looked really pretty on the website. It's really reddish, but its pretty---lots of gold sparkles/shimmers, not sure whether I really like it to wear, we'll see. Next is my ultimate favorite, the one I wear everyday its called Email Me (Everyday Minerals) its a soft light pink, and its perfection, I swear. Last is Swimming Pool (Everyday Minerals) which is very similar to Email Me, but with a more bronze finish to it!
Hope You enjoy.
:)

Relationship Disaster

So have you guys ever had that one friend that just seems to ALWAYS, no matter what, pick the wrong guy? Well I definately have that friend, and she happens to be my BEST friend.
I just feel as though she picks these "loser" guys only hoping to change them, or for them to change themselves. Just recently she got back with an ex, who when I met him told her that she could go see a movie that she really wanted to see by herself.




They broke up...




But apparently now he has said those few magical words "I want you... blah blah blah" and they are back together. I'm so sad. I just do not like this relationship. I also HATE when people break up and get back together, a bazillion times---seriously after one time, that's it! If it doesn't work out after you break up once, it will NEVER work out. So really this is their final chance to work, and if they break up, they better NOT get back together, because people who do that are only fooling themselves, or doing this for the sex. seriously. Dean and I fight like hell (mostly me, and its ususually around my period time) but seriously, we threaten to break up with each other, but it never happens. I NEVER LET HIM LEAVE. Why?

Because I'm truly one hundred percent in love with this boy. yes.
Thank you.

Thanks for that vent. Feels good. Today I did not purchase anything ---tomorrow hopefully we'll make it to the paint store. Take it back...one of my latest and greatest, favorite drinks is Honest Mate---Agave Mate. It has been on sale at New Leaf for 99 cents, that is a steal. Organic, no fake sugar, and so goood for the body and great flavor!
Yes, I am a health nut.
:)
Healthy food doesn't have to taste bad---people just really need to open their eyes up to all the wonders of vegetarian/vegan, and organic healthy foods-the flavors are unbelievably tasty, and so much better, if you just try them!!!!

Shelf is gone! hooray

It is definately something to celebrate! Finally, this dumb shelf that was in my room is out and gone...now dean is spackling my walls, where the holes are from the shelf. I love him...he's so cute.

He worked like a 9.5 hour day today! JEESE. I made him dinner though, and he's so silly and cute.

I'm downloading music right now which I am really excited about since I have been saying it for like 2 weeks straight. ha.

Anyways I really want to try the pureology shampoo--the green bottle kind, so I think I am going to get it almost like as a bday present since its kind of expensive, but I need good shampoo and conditioner since I straighten and color it.

:) I'll ask my mom for a lil' help out.

I believe the green bottle is repair and reconstruct....

Well hmm... oh yes! I also want to move my big stereo thing out of my room and downstairs to the living room, and I want to get an i-pod (one broke and one was stolen) and a speaker systemy thing for my room, so that I have more space.

It will be perfect, I think Dean will get me it for my bday since that's what he really wants to give me!

:)

haha.

loves.

I love dean

Even though we fight I love him so incredibly much!
I would never want anyone else.
He is perfect.

Well today I cleaned my room, yes, like I said I was going to. I got rid of a ton of stuff, and threw out even more!!!
I am really excited because I want to paint and get a few new things for my room.
:) That's always fun right?
I miss Dean, he's been at work all day, but he should be coming home soon-ish.
He really is my favorite person to be around and do things with.
The makeup I ordered online has not arrived yet, and I really want it to---I ordered it on Saturday, hopefully it will be here tomorrow.
I really want and need it, since I am almost out of my other stuff.
Well I'll keep you posted on how my room goes---

Peel away bad days

That is how I feel today. I had a facial peel, and to me that resembles getting rid of dirty, ugly, gross, horrible feelings. I just have been having a toss up time with this whole travelling bit. I'm not sure what to do. I love Dean, my boyfriend and I love his family, but travelling to me is such an effort---and scary---and no where near something I really want to do, or even a place I want to go. I guess time will tell. Maybe I'll get drunk before I board, or something random like that.
:/

So anyways lets talk about something more exciting, and happier. There are few things that I want to get---some for me, and some for my room.
I really want to re-do my room, why I have some time off during the summer.
Tomorrow I am going to work out and then clean my room and go through all my stuff and throw lots of stuff out! But these are things I am planning to do:
1.) Paint my room---I have officially chosen the color(s) that I want.
2.) Get rid of the shelf thing in my room that is ugly and wasting space.
3.) Organize my makeup/jewelery/and clothes...this will take some effort.
I just really want there to be more space, but still a lot of everything haha.
if that made any sense what so ever.
4.) I want to keep it that way....

The few items I wish to purchase for myself are:
1.) Pureology shampoo and conditioner
2.) A hot iron bag for travelling (if i actually make it to that day)
3.) And of course more clothes!



Well this is all for now.
We'll talk later.
:)

New York

To go or not to go.
I am supposed to go to this wedding in New York, but not the city, the country...and I'm really not looking forward to it. 1, its humid there, and I am afraid that I will break out. 2, My boyfriend's family over there doesn't eat anything I eat. 3, there really is no Starbucks there, at all...what the ... 4, Its a long long long flight from where I live, and I really just am uncomfortable and pretty afraid.

They already bought the tickets and I am just not 100 hundred percent ready to go!!!
I have so much going on this summer that I feel overwhelmed and crazy. I have my wisdom teeth out next friday and my boyfriend will not even be able to be with me---and that really pisses me off. I am afraid of getting my wisdom teeth pulled, and I really wanted him to be there.
Plus his boss at work is an old, fat bitch, and I hate her. I am so sorry for that usage of language but seriously, she said that its sad that i have him wrapped around my finger.
FUCK OFF BITCH you don't even know me. Seriously.
I'm just so frustrated with everything. I really just cannot even deal with this anymore, and I feel as though I just want to give up on everything- I feel so upset about this stuff.
:(
I don't know what to do.

Shopalcoholic

So lately I have been spending a lot of money on clothes!!!

Recently I got really cute tops from Forever 21, and my store Pacific Sunwear!

I love getting the discounts at my store, and I love Forever 21 because its really cheap and cute stuff!

I'll post some pictures below if I can...

This dress I was originally just going to get alone, but ended up purchasing the top below as well...but yeah you know we all see something cute and cannot control the urge to splurge. I got this dress after browsing online for one for the wedding(s) I am going to over the summer. One in New York...so that will be perfect!

This top is soo cute, and I never have gotten so many compliments as I did when I wore this shirt to work, I mean comments after comments, I loved it, because I love the top!

So then I ended up going back like that wed, after the weekend and I had to get my best friend who graduated a really cute top and a necklace and picked myself up a cute top and owl necklace as well...it always happens!
At my store I picked up two new tops and a pair of rainbow sandals...I'm still working them in, and they hurt! hopefully they get better!
One of the shirts I got is a total boob shirt, I cannot find it online, but it is from O'Neill, its really cute.This other top is from our brand Kira, but its so adorable and cute and I love it! I got the one in white that is shown, but there are other colors. So cute.

I also just recently bought makeup on Everyday Minerals.com I love this makeup brand because they let you test samples, and order as many as you please. I also end up purchasing stuff too, but its really nice to get some little samples to try out and always have as backups if you run out.

One of the main reasons I love Everyday Minerals is because they do not use Carmine---also known as Red Dye Red Lake, or whatever in makeup. The ingredient is not good for the skin, and cause breakouts. It is found in almost all blushes and eye products. Everyday Minerals is cheap too, and very good quality which is something that everyone looks for in makeup. I recommend it to everyone.

I'll post pictures in my next entry.
Loves to all.
:)

Update

So my boyfriend and I worked things out, which is great!
We argue a lot but we always work things out.
I love him.
Well it s really sad because he had bronchitis right now, and he was really sick earlier in the week.
I NEVER get really sick the way he does. So hopefully that means I will not be getting sick...
cross your fingers that I don't because our spring break is this week as in two days!!! We've already planned our break out. Monday-San Francisco, Tuesday-Boardwalk Wed- he works, Thursday- Aquarium and Friday I have facial!
I'm really excited, I think we're going to have a lot fun.
I hope everything happens, because it will be a great one.


So I totally forgot to update that I got hair extensisons! They're just clip-ins but I didn't feel like spending a lot of money and ruining my hair. These work perfectly, and the price seems like a lot but I got them on sale and you get a ton of hair enough for like three sets of extensions. I only use two weaves, it looks natural and sooo cute!
I'm so happy with it.



So this would be my in's and out list:

In's:
* hair extensison- so natural and beautiful looking. I can style them, wash them, cut them and even color them if I wanted!
* Revlon (drugstore makeup) cheap and beautiful made. I love Relvon.
* Youtube I love watching people's makeup videos its cool and I deftinately like getting ideas for hair and makeup so amazing.
* Spring Break


Out:
* Expensive department makeup -I just can't afford it...but I would love to get some higher end eyeshadows since those can't break you out or what not
* The Economic Crisis---come on already I'm so over this I want everything to be good
*School- I'm so ready for summer
* Dean (my boyfriend) being sick...

Could it be time for a breakup?

Perhaps. My boyfriend just told me something that I should have been aware of months ago, as in as soon as we got intimate.
It's ridicolous to me because lying is the worst thing someone can do...because it falls into betrayal and etc. Basically I'm hurt, saddened, and feel numb for that fact that he claims he told me. Its important for people to know the past...so seriously I just cannot believe him.
Everytime we fight he has nothing to say. He just sits there and is quiet, then when he does have something to say its just "I don't know what to say." its absurd.
I feel hurt and I just think it should or could be over right now.
I feel betrayed and lied to.
the fact of the matter is he knows I hate LIARS.

It has been so long since I've blogged

Slap on the wrist Nicole, it's been so long since you've written for pleasure.
So everyone I've just been going to school and working, and pretty much living with my boyfriend.

First off, I finished with high marks on my 6 month review at work which got me a raise! Yay! only 25 cents but hey, you can't ask for much in these hard economic times!

Second, I don't think I told you but I finished my first semester of college like flying colors, 4.0 gpa. I don't know if I will do as well this semester, but i always set very high standards for myself.

Third, I re-did this blog because a.) my boyfriend wanted me to blog about 'our' daily lives (lol), and I just like talking about a bunch of things besides just makeup. I love makeup though, and that's why I kept the title of my blog as "Makeup or Breakup" since its just cute and could be implied as anything. You know.

Well let me start off with some interesting stuff (kind of)

So this semester in college I'm taking two English classes, Marine Biology with my boyfriend, and Stats. It is kind of a lot, but I think I'm doing well so far.
I just had my first exam in stats I got a B and Marine Biology's first test was last Thursday, which I think both my boyfriend and I did well on. (hopefully) I never like to make it seem as though I aced it because then if I get back and it's awful...its sad.

So now let me talk about MAKEUP STUFF!!!!
So just yesterday I went to Longs to get Covergirl mascara... ( i look for sales at my drugstores for great prices on the products I love.) and it was 50% all Covergirl products and I had a 1.00 off it also...so it came out to about 3.22 with tax?!! amazing.

Just recently I switched my main liquid foundation from Mac's Superfit liquid in NC20 ( which let me tell you...I think was definately the wrong shade for me...it was very yellow, and I'm Italian...aka olive skin...darker...and I have friends who had darker shades in Mac and they were much fairer than me...) but anways I did not really like the Superfit. I wanted to, mainly because it was MAC but yeah...I just didn't. Like most it made me break out and it just didn't do what I wanted it to. So a friend of mine looked gorgeous one day and she had been struggling with breakouts too, and she looked sooo good, so I just asked her...so what makeup are you wearing?

REVLON COLORSTAY foundation?! It is the best product I've tried so far. It is similar to MAC'S superfit, minus the breakouts and yellowish tint. It's beautiful and covers so naturally and stays so well. I love it.

And guess what .....RITE AIDE will be having buy one get one free REVLON products! yes yes yes! There's also some eye shadows I'm dying to get. I can't wait. Plus I have that 1.00 coupon for that also!!!


So that's it for right now.
My boyfriend and I are doing homework and thats about it...more tomorrow?
hopefully.
LOVES.

Scrub This...

Hey everyone, its Monday, I seriously still have almost a month left of winter break its crazy; but super exciting as well, so I can't complain.
I was just getting ready to head off to the gym, but I decided I would post before I left.
Lately I've just been hooked on facial scrubs and exfoilaters (probably spelt wrong). I've tried a higher end brand, a medium cost one, and a low end cost one as well. What I've found is that I really enjoyed the two lower/medium costs one...well they're probably lower end if I say so. The three scrubs I've tried have been:

Chanel Micro Exfoliater...(something like that) the deep cleansing one.
which was about $48.00
Clean and Clear Morning Burst (the green one) with lemograss
on sale $6.49
and ...

Queen Helene Oatmeal n' Honey Scrub was probably really cheap somewhere in the $3 range

to be honest I think the Chanel one had made me break out when I used it.
But the Oatmeal n' Honey and the Clean and Clear both give me soft and hyrdated skin, when I'm finished. They're both very gentle and don't leave my skin dried and tight. The chanel one did smell good, but so do these two. I think the secret to them is the extra moisture they provide as they exfoilate the skin. If I could say anything, and give anyone any advice or lesson that they keep to heart, it would be to always keep your skin hydrated and moisturized, because I've seen it all...and I will probably blog later about the horrible-ness of over-cleansing and over doing products...
because trust me...
I KNOW.


Love you guys!

Makeup or Breakup

First of all I want to say that I'm Nicole. I live by the beach and I love every moment of it! I attend college and I have found my soulmate, Dean. He'll probably be discussed every once in a while. Anyways, I love makeup, clothes, and anything healthy,(like working out), beauty products, as well as hair products. I'm obsessed with looking good, and feeling good. So lets get started.

My favorite Makeup Products:


Overall, I have gone through a lot of makeup products, I like to try new things and get new ideas from seeing others. Right now I'm in the M.A.C phase. I have no idea why I didn't get addicted sooner, but I love their products. I'm using their foundation; Studio Fix Fluid in NC20...its kind of weird, I didn't think I'd be that light, because I have olive skin since I'm Italian, but its actually the perfect shade. I think it covers really well and makes my skin feel soft and even toned, and beautiful I love it. I use it with either BareMinerals or M.A.C. loose mineral powder, in medium. I also use the select cover up in NW20 which is very nice as well. My skin does break out but not from makeup so I like nice, medium coverage. The makeup doesn't make me look cakey, nor "too made up." I also got a mineral blush in love joy its pretty a darker plum color and I love it.


My favorite mascara would have to be CoverGirl LashBlast, I ran out of it though, and I'm trying the new Revlon one...the one that extends your lashes. Its nice, but when you take it off the "fake" lashes get pretty crazy all over your face. It doesn't bother me much since I always take a shower and so its more likely to come off all at once.

I don't always wear both eyeliner and mascara, usually, but not always. I use Clinique's Kohl Pencil liner with the built-in sharper, its really nice. It lines dark and always applies easily. Its easy to line your eyes straight and not go over your line, which I've found to do with drugstore liners. Currently I'm usuing a gel liner since they were out of the one I usually buy. Its nice, its not as dark but it still lines nicely.


The breakups:
These are the products I could do without. These are the one's I've tried and they just didn't work well for me.

Cliniques Superfit Foundation...it was nice at first, but I don't think it gives me enough coverage, and I find it to be more orangy...

Also like 2 of the 3 bronzers that Clinique offers are way tooo orangey, and they just dont look that flattering.