Spurlge Alert!

So even though it was 50% off (which is considered a great markdown) I spurlged on a purse that was $140 dollars! But I really could not pass it up! It is so adorable. It's normally 285 dollars, but its so cute! It's by the brand Besso. I got it downtown, it's so beautiful. I absoultely love it.
:)
Just thought I would share.
I work tomorrow @ 2-6, its decent hours considering I don't close and I don't open...but it is kind of right in the middle of the day, but that's alright since Dean goes to class and then works.
:)
I'm also watching my "aunt and uncle's"house and pets---they aren't really my aunt and uncle but they feel like it! I love them.
I'm really excited.
I have to call into jury duty on Friday---I really just don't want to go.
LOVES.

I love my hair

So I love my hair so extremely much, that I just never want it to fade! I bought a special shampoo/conditioner for my hair---Biolage by Matrix, for color treated hair! Its a clear shampoo which I need since my hair gets oily at top but dry at the ends! My hair stylist uses this on me and her other clients, and I have had it before. I also have Joico K-Pak Reconstructing shampoo and conditioner but its a pearly iredescent shampoo, so its not as good for my hair type.
I also learned to prevent your hair from becoming too oily, its not a good idea to pile your hair ontop of your head---the idea that you conditioner your ends but not your scalp, but if you pile your hair on top...hence the idea of an oily scalp!!! Not good. So yeah that's nice to know since I have always put my hair up, whether its drying in a towel wrap or clipped up so its not in the way.
I'm going to give it a try and see how it goes!

Also I really want to get a few items.
St. Tropez Sunless tanner--the mousse. I think its about 30 something dollars.
Also I want hair extensions...I know I know, but I really think it would look sooo cute with my dark locks.
Also I am waiting for my two dresses and headbands from Forever 21 to arrive, should be here tomorrow or Monday...I am very excited!
:) night.

Sitting on my bed

"I've been sitting on my bed in your neighborhood..." K it totally doesn't work like Pepper's song:

"I've been sitting on the curb in your neighborhood," okay, enough of that ...

but yeah I've been really loving this song by Kings of Leon called "I want you." It's really good.

Still trying to figure them out, but I just don't know.

I worked today from 11-3---good shift because its early in the day, so I have time to do stuff later!

My boss said that I was her best employee! That's so awesome.

:) Made my day.

I'm still trying to sell my ipod touch its brand new $200 for it?

Any takers?

I DON'T know I am kind of over it, I just want to keep it now! Maybe I'll just get a cool phone from Verizon Wireless.

Seriously though---not much else.

I just felt like posting.

maybe more in a bit... or later! :)

Vent

I don't understand why I feel this way?
.... Like I love my boyfriend so much, but I'm attracted to other guys.
I mean, I know its normal to be attracted to other people---that's nature, that's life, that's reality...but if Dean said things about the girls he finds attractive, I would totally get jealous---and I do.
But with me, I can't help! I feel sometimes like my boyfriend is my boy-friend...and not like a lover...if that made sense.
I find myself attracted to an older guy--- (34 or 35 now) who knows...and for WHAT?
seriously.
its a little disturbing... and maybe something is wrong?
I just don't know.
I don't know what to do
my boyfriend is perfect...yet it seems as though I have a classic case of "It's greener on the other side..." This just can't be so?
I don't know what to do because I don't want to make the mistake of losing someone amazing---but I also don't want to make the mistake of not being able to meet new people---like what if's are happening in my mind again.
Seriously?
Its just more than usual I feel differently...but yet I feel the same.
I don't know what to do.
I'm confused...saddened and feel like I will lose altogether is whatever decision I make?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
It's so hard to say goodbye to someone that you care about the most, someone that makes you feel beautiful and special...but its also hard to feel restrained, and stuck, and not able to seek your interests in another.
ugh...
its hard.
I JUST CANNOT DECIDE.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
It seems as though I will have the biggest loss, either way.

Long Time no chat

Update!!! I am a brunette. I got really tired of the upkeep with the blonde...so brunette it is! :) I think it looks great. Anyways lets see I just got a new eyeliner, its Revlon Liquid Eyeliner. Its really nice and actually I find it much easier to use than the regular pencil or gel. I really like it. I also got a brow tinted wax thing with a highlighter as well. Its really pretty. I really like the things I got!
So not much has been going on besides my hair change, I love it, its so cute. I want it to lighten just a tad...but its perfect I think. :)
I got to go.