It's like I'm stuck

I feel as though I am stuck.
But not really.
But I am.
I love my boyfriend, but at the same time I'm totally interested in someone else.
Do I know if he's interested in me?
nada.
but there's always a chance, and always a chance for a friendship.
But for my boyfriend, its not just this one guy, its the possibility of dating other guys---not just this one.
And I just feel stuck either way I go I'm hurting myself or my boyfriend, or being totally unsure.