Peel away bad days

That is how I feel today. I had a facial peel, and to me that resembles getting rid of dirty, ugly, gross, horrible feelings. I just have been having a toss up time with this whole travelling bit. I'm not sure what to do. I love Dean, my boyfriend and I love his family, but travelling to me is such an effort---and scary---and no where near something I really want to do, or even a place I want to go. I guess time will tell. Maybe I'll get drunk before I board, or something random like that.
:/

So anyways lets talk about something more exciting, and happier. There are few things that I want to get---some for me, and some for my room.
I really want to re-do my room, why I have some time off during the summer.
Tomorrow I am going to work out and then clean my room and go through all my stuff and throw lots of stuff out! But these are things I am planning to do:
1.) Paint my room---I have officially chosen the color(s) that I want.
2.) Get rid of the shelf thing in my room that is ugly and wasting space.
3.) Organize my makeup/jewelery/and clothes...this will take some effort.
I just really want there to be more space, but still a lot of everything haha.
if that made any sense what so ever.
4.) I want to keep it that way....

The few items I wish to purchase for myself are:
1.) Pureology shampoo and conditioner
2.) A hot iron bag for travelling (if i actually make it to that day)
3.) And of course more clothes!



Well this is all for now.
We'll talk later.
:)

New York

To go or not to go.
I am supposed to go to this wedding in New York, but not the city, the country...and I'm really not looking forward to it. 1, its humid there, and I am afraid that I will break out. 2, My boyfriend's family over there doesn't eat anything I eat. 3, there really is no Starbucks there, at all...what the ... 4, Its a long long long flight from where I live, and I really just am uncomfortable and pretty afraid.

They already bought the tickets and I am just not 100 hundred percent ready to go!!!
I have so much going on this summer that I feel overwhelmed and crazy. I have my wisdom teeth out next friday and my boyfriend will not even be able to be with me---and that really pisses me off. I am afraid of getting my wisdom teeth pulled, and I really wanted him to be there.
Plus his boss at work is an old, fat bitch, and I hate her. I am so sorry for that usage of language but seriously, she said that its sad that i have him wrapped around my finger.
FUCK OFF BITCH you don't even know me. Seriously.
I'm just so frustrated with everything. I really just cannot even deal with this anymore, and I feel as though I just want to give up on everything- I feel so upset about this stuff.
:(
I don't know what to do.